Olga Benario Prestes: The German who fought fascism, to the death

In her final letter to her husband, Luis Carlos Prestes, and her daughter Anita two months before her death in 1942, Olga Benario Prestes wrote, “I fought for the just and the good, to make the world better. If I must now say goodbye, I promise I won’t give you any cause to be ashamed of me, not to my last breath.”

Killed in a Nazi euthanasia centre shortly after turning 34, the German communist’s words alluded to her lifelong fight against fascism.

Hers is a story of bravery and resistance that speaks to the various times in which it’s been told, and which has left a legacy in Germany, Brazil and beyond.

For her daughter, Anita Leocadia Prestes, today a retired professor and historian living in Rio de Janeiro, it’s a legacy that needs to be remembered.

The 82-year-old tells Al Jazeera: “It’s important to publicise fighters like [Olga] Benario so people understand it’s necessary to stop the rise of fascism and to prevent similar tragedies. Her example is inspiring to young people who want to fight against fascism, and for social justice and freedom.”

An early lesson in social justice

Born in 1908, Olga was the youngest of two siblings in a middle-class Jewish family from Munich. Her mother Eugenie was part of Bavarian high society, while her father Leo was a member of the German Social Democratic Party and a lawyer. He would often represent poor factory workers for free, and it was through him that Olga first learned about social justice.

Her relationship with her mother, however, was ‘tense’, as, from a young age, Olga questioned – and rejected – the comforts that came with her middle-class upbringing.

Olga Benario was born in 1908 to middle-class Jewish family in Munich [Image courtesy of Galeria Olga Benario in Berlin, Germany]

In 1923, the same year an Austrian named Adolf Hitler initiated the Beer Hall Putsch – a failed attempt to overthrow the Weimar Republic in Munich – 15-year-old Benario joined the underground Communist Youth Organisation (KJVD).

Her activities with the group, including putting up illegal revolutionary posters around town, led local police to register her as a ‘communist agitator’.

It’s important to publicise fighters like [Olga] Benario so people understand it’s necessary to stop the rise of fascism and to prevent similar tragedies. Her example is inspiring to young people who want to fight against fascism, and for social justice and freedom.

Anita Leocadia Prestes, Olga Benario’s daughter

She soon got into a relationship with Otto Braun, a fellow communist seven years her senior. When Olga was 18, the pair left to join the larger communist movement in Berlin and she took on similar activities in her role as a leading KJVD member in the working class neighbourhood of Neukolln.

Her arrest on charges of ‘preparations for high-treason’, followed by her successful attempt to break Braun out of jail in 1928, made Olga a well-known figure across the city.

A police headshot of Olga Benario taken when she was arrested in Berlin in 1926 [Image courtesy of Galeria Olga Benario in Berlin, Germany]

Katinka Krause, 64, is a bookshop owner who has volunteered at Galeria Olga Benario, a Berlin-based gallery, for more than 30 years.

“There were posters of her all over town and images shown before cinema screenings offering 10,000 marks to find her. Many workers gave her a home and doors were made in different places so she could escape at anytime,” says Krause.

Now a target for the authorities, the pair headed to the Soviet Union, where Olga joined the Communist Youth International, a branch of the Communist International (Comintern).

Her relationship with Braun soon over, she underwent an intense period of military and strategic training, a skillset that included learning English, French and Russian, plus skydiving, horse-riding and piloting.

She also proved herself with successful international missions to Western Europe, getting arrested in Paris and London for her part in protests.

‘A gift’ to Hitler

In 1934, back in Moscow, Olga was tasked with accompanying Brazilian communist leader Luis Carlos Prestes, then in exile in Moscow, back to Brazil.

Olga was to be his bodyguard amid preparations to overthrow Brazilian leader Getulio Vargas, who looked to be sliding towards dictatorship. Disguised as a married Portuguese couple during their lengthy journey there, the pair reached the South American nation in love.

In 1934, Olga Benario was charged with escorting Luis Carlos Prestes, who had been in exile in Moscow, back to Brazil [Image courtesy of Galeria Olga Benario in Berlin, Germany]

The revolution against Vargas failed in 1935, and Olga was eventually captured. Vargas shipped her back to Germany as ‘a gift’ to Hitler.

Swiss-German historian and author Robert Cohen has written three books on Olga Benario. The most recent, Der Vorgang Benario. Die Gestapo-Akte 1936-1942, (The Benario Process: The Gestapo File 1936-1942) examined the 2,000 Gestapo documents on her that came to light three years ago. According to Cohen, it’s likely to be the largest dossier of documents on any Holocaust victim.

Cohen describes Olga as physically and mentally tough, and says he has sought to represent her from a feminist perspective.

“She took on roles only men were supposed to do, and was as brave and knowledgeable. When Prestes was arrested, the Brazilian police had the order to shoot him. By that point, Benario was two or three months pregnant, but she stepped in front of him and the police didn’t know what to do. She didn’t do this just out of love, she did it because it was her job.”

Resistance in Ravensbruck

Shortly after her return to Germany in 1936, she gave birth to Anita in a Berlin prison. After 14 months, mother and daughter were separated and in 1939, Olga was transferred to the Ravensbruck concentration camp, situated 90km from Berlin in the north of the country.

A concentration camp only for women, it was built to house inmates considered ‘deviants’. Up until its closure in 1945, more than 130,000 women and children, including aristocrats, political prisoners and spies were held there. Olga was among the first batch of women to arrive.

A photograph of Olga Benario Prestes in the exhibit ‘Women of Ravensbruck – Portraits of Courage’, curated by Rochelle Saidel for the Florida Holocaust Museum. Artwork on the right by Julia Terwilliger 

Rochelle Saidel is the founder and executive director of the Remember the Women Institute, an organisation based in New York that supports cultural and research projects that aim to include women in history.

“She was whipped, put in a punishment bunker and worked as a slave labourer in the Siemens factory, which was one of the main slave labour companies at the camp,” says Saidel.

“Plus, she was very broken when they took her baby away from her. For a year-and-a-half she didn’t know what had happened, for all she knew the baby could have been given to a Nazi family. Despite that, she continued helping other people and remained idealistic.”

She never wavered before the enemy, stating that ‘if others became traitors, she would never be’. She paid with her life for such steadfastness…

Anita Leocadia Prestes, Olga Benario’s daughter

Olga was named Blockalteste, or block elder. She made a small secret atlas to teach other prisoners about geography and war, collaborated on a clandestine newspaper and put together a detailed atlas which remains in archives today.

Then in February 1942, she was taken to the Bernburg euthanasia clinic, where she was gassed to death in April.

Olga Benario Prestes was 34 years old when she was killed by the Nazis [Image courtesy of Galeria Olga Benario in Berlin, Germany]

Her daughter says she maintained a firm stance towards her captors right up until the end.

“She never wavered before the enemy, stating that ‘if others became traitors, she would never be’. She paid with her life for such steadfastness, since if she were to deceive her comrades, she would have had the chance to take up asylum in Russia, Mexico or England.”

The politics of memory

Authors, filmmakers, curators and theatre directors have all sought to tell her story. Saidel says the various ways in which it has been narrated are a clear example of the politics of memory.

“It depends on who, on why and when they are remembering,” she says.

The Jewish part of her identity in particular has triggered much discussion. As a communist herself, Anita regards her mother more as a political prisoner than a Jewish victim of the Nazis.

Cohen says he sees both. “Benario never insisted on her Jewishness, in fact as a communist she was very distant from it,” he says. “When they captured her in 1936, the documents showed they treated her mostly as a communist and a member of the Comintern, from whom they could learn secrets about what the Soviet Union and other communists were up to. But from 1940 onwards, they refer to her almost exclusively as a Jew.”

Benario never insisted on her Jewishness, in fact as a communist she was very distant from it.

Robert Cohen, Swiss-German historian and author

Anita was saved by her paternal grandmother Leocadia Prestes and reunited with her father in 1945. She has since written about her parents extensively. Her latest book, Olga Benario Prestes: Uma comunista nos arquivos da Gestapo (Olga Benario Prestes: A Communist in the Gestapo Archives) was published last year in Portuguese, and alongside Gestapo documents, features letters between her parents.

Anita Leocadia Prestes, Olga’s daughter, is a retired professor and historian who has written about her parents [Photo courtesy of the Sao Paulo-based Boitempo publishing house, which published Anita’s most recent book]

Anita says that in Brazil, her mother is seen as a “symbol of the struggle of freedom fighters and communists”. The 2004 Brazilian blockbuster film, Olga, was Brazil’s submission for the 77th Academy Awards in the Best Foreign Film category, although it was not accepted as a nominee.

Resist. We cannot accept what is going on. Olga Benario did it two ways. She fought fascism while she was free, and then she resisted the Nazis for six more years. That is almost unimaginable.

Robert Cohen, Swiss-German historian and author

In Germany, during the Cold War, she was considered a heroine in the east of the country, with schools, care homes, factories and streets named after her.

Being a communist heroine in the East meant that the West ignored her. Krause, the volunteer at the gallery in former West Berlin, says that’s now changing and more people are learning about her across the country.

For Cohen, Olga Benario’s legacy, particularly today, as far right movements grow in prominence across much of the world, is clear.

“Resist. We cannot accept what is going on. Olga Benario did it two ways. She fought fascism while she was free, and then she resisted the Nazis for six more years. That is almost unimaginable.”

Across Europe, the far right is on the rise and it has some of the continent’s most diverse communities in its crosshairs.

To the far right, these neighbourhoods are ‘no-go zones’ that challenge their notion of what it means to be European.

To those who live in them, they are Europe. Watch them tell their stories in This is Europe.

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Guatemala family mourns girl who died searching ‘for better life’

San Antonio Secortez, Guatemala – Nine-year-old Audel Caal carries a small bouquet of artificial white flowers as he runs down the dirt path leading to his grandfather’s home in the rural Guatemalan village of San Antonio Secortez.

Paying attention to the details, he carefully places the bouquet in a glass and straightens a framed photo of younger sister, Jakelin.

“I’m really sad,” Audel says, fighting back tears. “We played a lot.”

Jakelin died earlier this month while in the custody of the US Customs and Border Protection (CBP) agency. She was seven years old.

“We don’t want what happened to us to occur to anyone else,” says Jakelin’s 61-year-old indigenous Q’eqchi’ Maya grandfather, Domingo, who has lived in San Antonio Secortez since its founding more than three decades ago.

“Migrants need more attention and protection from the United States,” Domingo tells Al Jazeera. “Everyday there are thousands and thousands of people migrating all over the world.”

Jakelin’s grandfather says he doesn’t want other families to go through what his family has been through [Jeff Abbott/Al Jazeera]

Family disputes US story 

Jakelin died in CBP custody on December 8 after being detained along with her father, Nery, a day prior in New Mexico. US government officials initially claimed the seven-year-old died of dehydration, but her father refuted these claims. The official cause of death is pending as the autopsy results are being finalised.

The administration of US President Donald Trump blamed Jakelin’s father and the people smugglers, often referred to as coyotes, who led the pair, along with more than 150 more across the border. 

“This is exactly why we try to encourage migrants to go a port of entry. Unfortunately, they arrived in the middle of the night in the middle of nowhere,” Kirstjen Nielsen, the Homeland Security Secretary, said before the House Judiciary Committee on Thursday. “As soon as [the father] indicated there was a health issue, we did what we could do as quickly as possible to get her to medical care … the men and women of CBP did everything they could do.”

But the family rejects that Jakelin was sick upon arriving to the border.

“The government and Donald Trump are negating the case of my daughter,” Claudia Maquin, Jakelin’s 27-year-old mother, tells Al Jazeera in her native Q’eqchi’ language through a translator. “He is saying she didn’t get sick in custody. It was in their country and they responsible for her death.”

Jakelin’s mother Claudia calls on the US to let her husband stay in the US to find work [Jeff Abbott/Al Jazeera] 

Claudia, standing in her home in San Antonio Secortez, adds that she believes the US is trying to “protect their backs”. 

Claudia wants the Trump administration to allow her 29-year-old husband to stay in the US in order to find work to pay back the debt he accumulated while fleeing to the US. She also hopes he can stay to live out Jakelin’s dream of living in the United States.

“The worst and the most painful thing that could happen to us is that my husband returns without completing his and our daughter’s dream,” Claudia says.

Nery remains in CBP custody, and may be deported as early as Sunday, according to the family.

Discrimination, extreme poverty, climate change

Jakelin and her father fled to the US for same reasons that have pushed hundreds from the area to leave.

Guatemala has long suffered from systemic inequalities and discrimination against indigenous communities. 

The extreme poverty and lack of government attention has pushed many to migrate as a means of survival, especially in San Antonio Secortez. According to Domingo, Jakelin’s grandfather, at least 12 other families there have migrated to the United States.

This is reflective of the rest of the communities across the municipality of Raxruha. According to Pedro Ico, the spokesman for the municipality of Raxruha, at least 200 families have migrated from the region.

“The extreme poverty is causing many to migrate from our municipality,” Pedro tells Al Jazeera, adding that families started leaving in 2017 due to lack of opportunities in the town.

“The prices of the products that we produce here do not have any value,” Pedro says. “Farmers have to work day to night, but there is no return. Because of this many are migrating.”

Poverty and climate change are pushing many from the community to flee to the US [Jeff Abbott/Al Jazeera] 

San Antonio Secortez sits in the lush Guatemalan department of Alta Verapaz. Here, land is among the most important assets for rural farmers.

For centuries peasant farmers have faced the rampant expansion of agro-industry. This has led to extensive inequalities of land ownership, especially for the indigenous Q’eqchi communities.

The community of San Antonio Secortez was founded in the early 1980’s after years of struggling to gain access to the land, which according to Caal was once owned by General Fernando Romeo Lucas Garcia, the dictator of Guatemala between 1978-1982.

It was a difficult struggle. The Guatemalan military carried out massacres across the region during dictatorship of Lucas Garcia and the subsequent administration of Efrain Rios Montt.

“It was dangerous, and it was a long struggle,” Domingo says. “There wasn’t any liberty to carry out these type of actions.”

Domingo was 27-years-old when they won the rights to the land. He left this victory for his children.

Yet in the decades since the community has been heavily affected by the lack of opportunity and by climate change. These factors are driving many to make the dangerous journey to the United States.

“There is less rain every day and it is getting warmer,” Domingo says. 

What little is produced is not enough to support the family.

“Here, there is no opportunity to work, we are receiving low pay for what we produce, and everyday things are more expensive,” Claudia says. “My husband decided to go to the United States to find the means to support our family.”

Nery worked almost one acre of land. Through this, the family earns around 700 quetzales, or roughly $90, every six months following the bi-annual corn harvest.

Expanding production was not an option.

“We could not sell more, since we needed the corn ourselves,” Claudia says. “And we could not plant any more since there was not any more land.”

It pains us deeply that we lost our daughter while in search of a better life.

Claudia Maquin, Jakelin’s 27-year-old mother

According to Claudia, her husband had attempted to find work on the nearby palm oil plantations the previous year, but no one was hiring.

It was earlier this year that her husband began to talk about migrating to the United States. His goal was to earn the money to buy more land to support the family.

Unlike other neighbours, Caal did not mortgage his land to get the money to pay the smugglers, locally known as coyotes, to arrange his trip to the United States.

“My husband never had a debt with the coyotes. He has a debt with our neighbours and family members,” Claudia says. 

The stress of having to pay back the money weighs hard on Claudia, she says. For now, though, she must prepare to bury her daughter, whose body is scheduled to return to her community on Sunday. 

“It pains us deeply that we lost our daughter while in search of a better life.”

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Knicks News: Kristaps Porzingis Knee Healing Well, to Be Re-Examined in February

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New York Knicks star Kristaps Porzingis is making progress in his recovery from a torn ACL, though it will still be a while before he’s back on the court.

Per an update from the team, Porzingis’ knee is “healing well,” and he will be re-evaluated in February.

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Porzingis was on pace to have a career year in 2017-18. He was averaging 22.7 points, 6.6 rebounds and 2.4 blocks per game while hitting 39.5 percent of his three-pointers. However, the 2018 All-Star tore his ACL 48 games into the campaign.

Nobody expected Porzingis to make a quick return, but team owner James Dolan raised some concern when he said the Latvian big man could be out for all of the 2018-19 season, as reported by the New York Post‘s Larry Brooks.

Based on the new information, it remains unclear if or when Porzingis will be able to play this season.

The Knicks are headed for another rebuilding year ahead of a potentially huge summer in 2019. Even head coach David Fizdale acknowledged the team’s focus is on next offseason, per ESPN.com, when a number of marquee stars are eligible for free agency.

Porzingis is clearly a foundational piece for the franchise. The last thing the Knicks need is for injuries to dog the 23-year-old and limit how good he can be in the NBA.

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Cardi B’s New ‘Money’ Video Looks, Well, Like It Cost A Lot Of Money



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When Cardi B‘s “Money,” not to be confused with Cardi B’s “Money Bag,” dropped in late October, it was the first taste of new music we heard from Cardi after her debut collection — one of our albums of the year, Invasion of Privacy — dropped in April. And after she’d ascended to utter rap stardom. And after she’d given birth to her daughter, Kulture. It was an Event, and it went hard.

Perhaps unsurprisingly then, the “Money” video is, likewise, an Event. The biggest, most memeable moment is Cardi breastfeeding what may actually be her daughter in a moment of power for working mothers. In fact, breasts are all over this monumentally expensive-looking video, as is Cardi herself — behind a glass case like a museum artifact, commanding a fleet of highly fashionable women, sitting naked at the piano.

Earlier this week, Cardi appeared in a new segment of James Corden’s Carpool Karaoke, where the pair sang and danced to her massive hit “I Like It” at a senior center. “I just had a baby and this is how I lost weight,” she says at one point, twisting her torso around to the music. The “Money” video, though, tells a different story, as her moves throughout it must’ve accounted for at least 30 percent of Cardi’s postnatal cardio regimen.

By the end, we’ve taken a detour to pay homage to Cardi’s stripper days, with piles of cash on the stage for full effect, and lingered on her angel-white pair of Beats headphones long enough to get some nice product placement. It’s a hell of a ride.

Watch the dazzling, money-filled “Money” video above.

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Raiders Rumors: ‘Distinct Possibility’ Team Shares AT&T Park with Giants in 2019

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The Oakland Raiders and the San Francisco Giants are currently in talks to allow the Silver and Black to play the 2019 season across the bay at AT&T Park, according to NBC Bay Area’s Raj Mathai.

A Raiders source told Mathai “this is a distinct possibility” for Oakland.

As radio station KNBR noted, AT&T Park has hosted football games since opening in 2000. It played host to a college football bowl game from 2002 to 2013.

In March 2017, NFL owners approved the Raiders’ move from Oakland to Las Vegas. The franchise would not be able to make the move until 2020, though, because it is still in the process of building a new stadium in Nevada.

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As a result, the team is looking for a place to play its games next season.

Jon Gruden, in his second stint as head coach with the franchise, recently made his preference known, per Matt Kawahara of the San Francisco Chronicle: “I want to play in Oakland.”

That may not be an option following recent events. Television station KRON (via KXANreported last week the Raiders have taken a lease for its current stadium, the Oakland Coliseum, “off the table” for 2019 after the city of Oakland decided to sue the team for its “illegal move.”

Raiders owner Mark Davis revealed, per USA Today‘s Jori Epstein, earlier this month that San Diego, Santa Clara (home of the San Francisco 49ers), Berkeley and a temporary Las Vegas stadium are all possible options for the team next season. No deadline for a decision has been made, although Epstein reports that NFL commissioner Roger Goodell needs an answer by January or February.

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India: Eight get life sentence for lynching Muslim cattle traders

Latehar, Jharkhand – Imtiaz Khan, a 12-year-old schoolboy, and Majloom Ansari, a 32-year-old cattle trader, were abducted, beaten and hanged from a tree in Latehar in the Indian state of Jharkhand in March 2016. 

The two had been walking with their oxen they planned to sell at a cattle fair, some 40km away, when they were intercepted by members of a Hindu “cow protection committee” in the next village and fatally attacked.

They were beaten with sticks and axes, and hanged from a tree with the same nylon ropes they used for their cattle. 

Now, more than two years later, a Latehar district court found the eight involved in the killings guilty of murder and sentenced them to life imprisonment.

As the accused were brought to court, around 100 supporters shouted slogans such as ‘Bharat Mata ki jai’ (Glory be to mother India) and ‘Gau hatya band karo’ (Stop killing cows).

Friday’s ruling is only the second such conviction in a series of lynchings by Hindu cow vigilantes across India in the last few years.

Nazma and Azad Khan, whose 12-year-old son Imtiaz was killed in Latehar [Manob Chowdhury/Al Jazeera]

‘Right reckoning’

Pursuing the case legally for nearly three years was expensive as well as emotionally draining for the victims’ families, who are subsistence farmers in one of India’s poorest districts.

“During the trial, the defence lawyers would act very aggressively. He would accuse me of lying when I described how Imtiaz divided time going to school and helping his father, and what took place that day,” Imtiaz’s mother Nazma Khan told Al Jazeera in her house at the end of a dirt track in Arahara village.

“I told the court: Imtiaz was my son, I brought him up. How can their lawyers claim that I don’t know what I was saying?”

In Nawada village, Majloom Ansari’s brother Afzal was still in shock over the killing.

“How did these men think that they had the power to do this? Was it such small a thing for them,” he said.

Majloom’s father Mohammad Ibrahim Ansari said a life sentence was a “right reckoning for the accused”.

India’s Hindu majority regards cows as holy and their slaughter is banned in most Indian states.

Hindu vigilantes often roam the roads in India to protect cows, frequently resulting in assaults against Muslims and low-caste Dalits.

According to data analytics site, India Spend, almost 80 cases of cow-related violence took place between 2012 and 2017, mainly targeting Muslims, who comprise some 14 percent of India’s 1.3 billion people.

Killings hit cattle trade

In Latehar, both the families said they used to support their meagre income from farming by buying and selling cattle at village fairs. Since the killings, the trade completely stopped, they said.

In 2016, just before the killings, Imtiaz’s father, Azad Khan, bought eight oxen that he planned to sell in neighbouring Hazaribagh district.

Because Khan had injured his leg in a motor accident, he asked his 12-year-old son to accompany Majloom in transporting the oxen.

“They had to travel 40km, so they left home at 4 am to go as far as they could before the sun came out,” Khan told Al Jazeera.

“They even had receipts for the purchase of the cattle for Rs 42,000 ($608) from the fair. But these men accused them of smuggling the oxen and selling them for meat and brutally attacked them.”

A police investigation found that two men, who were returning from a wedding at dawn, spotted Imtiaz and Majloom carrying the animals and alerted six others from their village, Jhabahar.

“One of the men, Arun Sau, was active in cow vigilantism in the name of Hinduism, stopping cattle traders in the past as well. He led the attack,” said an investigating officer, who declined to be named.

Mohammad Ibrahim and Mohammad Imtiaz (R), Majloom Ansari’s father and brother in their house in Nawada village [Manob Chowdhury/Al Jazeera]

‘Will go to higher court’

Defence lawyer Arvind Lal, who represented the eight accused, told Al Jazeera that “the police acted irresponsibly during the investigation”.

“The police issued arrest warrants and then further warrants threatening to seize property within two days to put pressure on my clients and forced them to surrender and take blame for the crime,” said Lal.

“They did not even do a test identification parade. The police have shown mobile phone records as evidence but there is no proof that the mobile phones belonged to my clients.”

Lal said he would challenge the verdict in a higher court in Jharkhand state.

In Arahara, Imtiaz’s mother, Nazma, said the families would also pursue the case further if the verdict is challenged and would not give up.

“If they will go to a higher court, we will also go,” she said. “They killed my 12-year-old boy. They must be punished for what they have done.”

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POLITICO Playbook PM: Senate at standstill on spending bill

THE SENATE is currently voting on a motion to proceed onto the House government funding bill. This motion is being held open for several senators who went home for Christmas, and are trying to get back to town. SEN. JEFF FLAKE (R-ARIZ.) voted no.

PRESIDENT DONALD TRUMP met with a group of GOP senators at the White House at 10:30 this morning. Later, he spoke at a pool spray for the signing of the First Step Act and Juvenile Justice Reform Act, where he attempted to shift blame for the looming shutdown to Democrats.

— TRUMP, per pooler Francesca Chambers of the Daily Mail: “Now it’s up to the Democrats as to whether or not we have a shutdown tonight.” He added that he hoped there would not be one but would be OK if there were.

— CNN’S MANU RAJU (@mkraju): “[Mitch] McConnell tells reporters: GOP senators had a ‘good conversation’ with Trump and ‘we are going to continue to be talking about a way forward’ [Sen. Richard] Shelby says if there’s a shutdown, it will be on Democrats.”

NEW — RBG HEALTH WATCH … MATTHEW CHOI: “Justice Ginsburg had surgery to remove malignant nodules in her lung”: “Justice Ruth Bader Ginsburg had surgery to remove two malignant nodules in her left lung, the Supreme Court announced on Friday, adding that there was no evidence of any remaining disease and that no further treatment is planned.

“Doctors found the nodules in Ginsburg’s lung when inspecting potential damage from a fall she sustained on Nov. 7. Ginsburg fractured three ribs during the fall, but was back at work only a few days later.” POLITICO

THE PRESIDENT went on an 11-part tweetstorm over several hours this morning about funding a border wall and shutdown negotiations. He reversed course on who he thinks would shoulder blame for a shutdown, warning, “The Democrats now own the shutdown!”

— TRUMP urged MCCONNELL to “use the Nuclear Option and get it done!” and praised SEN. STEVE DAINES (R-MONT.) “for being willing to go with the so-called nuclear option.” NEWSFLASH … MCCONNELL has said repeatedly he won’t nuke the filibuster.

— IT WOULD TAKE 50 other Republican senators to do this in addition to Mitch McConnell. McConnell can’t do this on his own. SENS. ORRIN HATCH (R-UTAH), LAMAR ALEXANDER (R-TENN.) and JEFF FLAKE (R-ARIZ.) already tweeted this morning that they won’t. Then, McConnell put out a statement saying “there is not a majority in the conference to go down that road.” So now that we’ve exhausted that option, let’s move on.

THINK ABOUT THIS … THE 60-VOTE THRESHOLD protects Trump from things like the Mueller protection bill.

BURGESS EVERETT: “Senate GOP stiffs Trump on filibuster border wall demands”: “Both parties are digging in for a brutal political conflict with no clear endgame other than House Democrats taking the majority in January and sending the Senate a clean spending bill.” POLITICO

CAITLIN EMMA and JEN SCHOLTES: “5 ways a partial government shutdown would inflict pain”

ALSO EXPIRING TODAY … The Violence Against Women Act … Federal flood insurance.

Happy Friday afternoon. PROGRAMMING NOTE — Thank you for reading Playbook PM. Our afternoon edition will take a break over the holidays and return Jan. 2. Our morning Playbook will publish every day as always. Sign up here

THE LATEST IN SYRIA … WAPO’S ERIN CUNNINGHAM in Istanbul: “Turkey’s Erdogan delays operation against Kurdish forces in Syria”: “‘Our phone call with President Trump, along with contacts between our diplomats and security officials and statements by the United States, have led us to wait a little longer,’ he said, referring to a phone call between the two leaders last Friday.

“Still, he said, Turkey’s military is planning to launch the offensive in several months, with the aim of ‘eliminating’ both the Kurdish YPG, or People’s Protection Units, and Islamic State remnants.” WaPo

— WSJ’S JESSICA DONATI and COURTNEY MCBRIDE: “Syria Withdrawal Could Imperil Millions in Need of Aid”: “The decision … caught aid organizations off-guard and left many scrambling to respond. Aid officials fear that a sudden U.S. withdrawal could destabilize the area, endanger their staff and cut off humanitarian access to parts of the country previously secured by American forces.

“A draft statement circulating among a group of 70 international aid groups operating in and around Syria warned that a sudden withdrawal could create a vacuum that might trigger more violence and hamper aid efforts in the northeast.” WSJ

HOW IT HAPPENED — AP’S MATTHEW LEE and SUSANNAH GEORGE: “Trump call with Turkish leader led to U.S. pullout from Syria”: “President Donald Trump’s decision to withdraw American troops from Syria was made hastily, without consulting his national security team or allies, and over strong objections from virtually everyone involved in the fight against the Islamic State …

“Pompeo, Mattis and other members of the national security team prepared a list of talking points for Trump to tell Erdogan to back off … But the officials said Trump, who had previously accepted such advice and convinced the Turkish leader not to attack the Kurds and put U.S. troops at risk, ignored the script. Instead, the president sided with Erdogan.” AP

THE MATTIS TICK-TOCK — CNN’S JEREMY DIAMOND, BARBARA STARR, KEVIN LIPTAK and RYAN BROWNE: “How the Trump-Mattis alliance crumbled”

THE STEP BACK — NYT’S DAVID SANGER: “With the Generals Gone, Trump’s ‘America First’ Could Fully Emerge”: “Now the president appears determined to assemble a new team of advisers who will not tell him what he cannot do, but rather embrace his vision of a powerful America that will amass a military that will enforce national sovereignty and bolster American deal-making — but not spend time nurturing the alliance relationships that Mr. Mattis, in a remarkable resignation letter, makes clear are at the core of American power.” NYT

WHAT ELSE IS ON THE PRESIDENT’S MIND — @realDonaldTrump at 9:41 a.m.: “There has never been a president who has been tougher (but fair) on China or Russia — Never, just look at the facts. The Fake News tries so hard to paint the opposite picture.”

… at 10:31 a.m.: “I’ve done more damage to ISIS than all recent presidents….not even close!”

YIKES … REUTERS’ M.B. PELL and DEBORAH NELSON at Tinker Air Force Base, Okla.: “U.S. Air Force’s new housing dogged by construction flaws, imperiling tenants”: “The U.S. Department of Defense has privatized most of the living quarters on bases around the country, partnering with private companies to manage the vast system. What the Pentagon touts as privatization’s signature achievement – the building of new housing for military families – is marred by faulty construction and poor upkeep, Reuters found. …

“A Reuters review – built from court records, interviews and Defense Department Inspector General documents obtained through the Freedom of Information Act – found serious construction problems with new or renovated housing on at least 17 bases.” Reuters

STEVEN SHEPARD: “Gallup retreats from political polling again under new leadership”: “Only a year after Gallup switched its presidential tracking poll — the ever-present reading of the president’s approval rating — from daily to weekly, the company will announce Friday that it plans to measure President Donald Trump’s job-approval rating only on a monthly basis. It’s all part of what the company calls its new, ‘more global perspective,’ which de-emphasizes U.S. politics.

“It also includes a leadership change, with Mohamed Younis … replacing Frank Newport as editor in chief.” POLITICO

IMMIGRATION FILES — “In Immigrant Children’s Shelters, Sexual Assault Cases Are Open and Shut,” by ProPublica’s Michael Grabell, Topher Sanders and Silvina Sterin Pensel: “ProPublica’s review of the hundreds of police reports showed something else about the assaults. Something that went beyond background checks. Kids at shelters across the country were, indeed, reporting sexual attacks in the shelters, often by other kids. But again and again, the reports show, the police were quickly — and with little investigation — closing the cases, often within days, or even hours.” ProPublica

— WAPO’S MICHAEL MILLER in Bloomington, Ill.: “A boy separated from his mom at the border faces his first Christmas without her”: “Isaac and his mother had made the dangerous two-week journey from Honduras to the U.S.-Mexico border to ask for asylum. Instead, they were separated. His mother was deported. And Isaac was left behind. …

“In more than 200 cases, according to the American Civil Liberties Union, deported parents have made the painful decision to leave their separated sons or daughters behind in the hope that they will have a better life in America. For these families, Trump’s short-lived separation policy threatens to become permanent.” WaPo

ON THE WORLD STAGE — “U.S. Grants Iraq Sanctions Relief in Bid to Boost Business Deals,” by WSJ’s Benoit Faucon in London, Timothy Puko in Washington and Isabel Coles in Baghdad: “The Trump administration has given Iraq permission to buy Iranian natural gas without penalty for at least three more months, after pledges from Baghdad to buy American oil and energy technology.” WSJ

JOSH GERSTEIN: “Mosque surveillance case languishes amid concerns over court backlog”: “A legal case that could have profound consequences for the government’s ability to conduct surveillance inside mosques and other houses of worship has been stalled at a federal appeals court for more than three years with no sign of progress.

“The unexplained delay is rekindling questions about the timeliness of decisions from the San Francisco-based 9th Circuit, an issue that has drawn President Donald Trump’s ire. … The case also touches on an issue at the center of Trump’s campaign — surveilling Muslims.” POLITICO

THE LATEST IN NORTH CAROLINA — “N.C. election officials sounded alarm about alleged election fraud to federal prosecutors in January 2017,” by WaPo’s Amy Gardner and Beth Reinhard: “The letter raises fresh questions about whether federal investigators took any actions to scrutinize the complaints.” WaPo

BEYOND THE BELTWAY — NYT’S EDUARDO PORTER in Harlan, Ky.: “Where Government Is a Dirty Word, but Its Checks Pay the Bills”: “As Americans have grown more reliant on federal programs over the last 50 years, they have increasingly embraced the Republican Party, a trend put in stark relief by President Trump’s 2016 victory. Of the 10 states in which government transfers account for the largest share of income, seven voted for Mr. Trump. …

“Nowhere has the strategy worked better than Kentucky. … Mitch McConnell was known as a pro-civil rights, union-friendly moderate as a county executive in Louisville in the late 1970s. As federal transfers grew from around 10 percent of the income of the average Kentuckian in 1970 to 24 percent in 2016, seven percentage points more than the national average, the ideology of Mr. McConnell … moved sharply to the right. And local Democrats — who once thrived in heavily unionized mining towns — gradually lost ground.” NYT

— MARC CAPUTO: “Florida Democrats to grill party chair after huge losses”

— “Michigan GOP lawmakers pass bills before Dem governor starts,” by AP’s David Eggert in Lansing: “Michigan Republicans voted early Friday to toughen rules for ballot drives and to give themselves the authority to intervene in court cases, capping a contentious post-election legislative session that critics blasted as diluting the power of voters and incoming Democratic officeholders.” AP

POLITICO INVESTIGATION — BEN LEFEBVRE and NICK JULIANO, “How Zinke lost his way: In journeying from Whitefish to Washington, an outsider from Montana failed to follow the political guardrails.”

TV TONIGHT — Bob Costa sits down with Jake, the Boston Herald’s Kimberly Atkins, NYT’s Peter Baker and Time’s Molly Ball on PBS’ “Washington Week” at 8 p.m.

HOLIDAY PARTY CIRCUIT — SPOTTED at Fox News’ holiday party and 10th-anniversary celebration of “Special Report with Bret Baier” at the Dubliner on Thursday night: Rachel Maddow, Australian Ambassador Joe Hockey, Meghan McCain, Bill Sammon, Raul Fernandez, David Tafuri, Katy Ricalde, Lauren Blanchard, Edward Buckley, Amy Baier and Bret Baier, who rapped on stage with the Sugarhill Gang.

MEDIAWATCH — Lorraine Woellert will be the editor of POLITICO Florida. She is currently a White House reporter at POLITICO.

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How SHINee Fans Found Strength In One Another In The Year Since Singer Jonghyun’s Death



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By Elizabeth de Luna

In the early evening hours of a Saturday in June, 400 people gathered in silence under an open tent at KCON New York, a convention celebrating the growing global influence of Korean pop culture. At the front of the room, moderator Cortney Marbury cleared her throat. “Before we begin this panel on mental health in K-pop,” she said. “I want to take the first 15 minutes to open up the floor to anyone who wants to share their memories of Jonghyun and SHINee.” A heavy quiet hung over the room until one young woman crept up to the microphone. “SHINee was the first band I ever loved,” she said. “They got me through some really dark moments. I would even say they saved my life.” Heads in the audience nodded in agreement. “So when I saw on Twitter that Jonghyun…” she paused, breathed deeply, and continued, “had killed himself, I couldn’t believe it. I still can’t…” Her voice broke. “It’s been six months and I still think about him every day. No one in my life understands what I’m feeling. Why didn’t we see that he was struggling? What do we do now?”

Over the next two hours, more than 30 fans of influential Korean group SHINee, called “Shawols,” would approach the mic to share similar feelings of grief, confusion, and guilt. Their stories transformed a panel about mental and emotional health into a forum of collective mourning for the death of singer Kim Jonghyun, who died last December at the age of 27. This public outpouring was “completely unexpected but obviously needed,” Marbury said. “It was healing to be vulnerable in a safe space with like-minded people.”

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The members of SHINee, from left to right: Onew, Taemin, Jonghyun, Minho, and Key.

Being a K-pop fan outside of Korea can be physically isolating. To support an industry a world away, international Shawols must actively participate in a global digital community, performing almost all of their fan activities — from making friends to waiting patiently for lyric translations — online. Most international Shawols found out about Jonghyun’s death through a personal text, group chat, or tweet. They waited for news to cross time zones, breathlessly refreshing web pages for updates and typing furiously to their friends in other countries looking to make sense of the tragedy.

The recent deaths of American rappers Lil Peep, XXXTentacion, and Mac Miller were heavily covered across Western media, but Shawols didn’t experience the same public mourning. Many expressed that they were unable to properly communicate their pain to family or friends and, without anyone in their life to talk to, buried their sorrow as a means of coping. Kimmie, a Shawol from Georgia, noted that “many fans suppressed their grief because they felt that no one around them understood what they were going through.” It’s no wonder, then, that so many Shawols were openly overwhelmed by emotion at KCON. For the first time, they felt understood.

As a musician, Jonghyun was singular in his ability to write and produce songs for himself, SHINee, and some of K-pop’s biggest artists. As a person, fans describe him as witty, full of life, and compassionate, especially when it came to the struggles of others. Although homosexuality is criminalized in Korea, Jonghyun publicly supported the country’s LGBTQ community. He also was open about his own depressive thoughts in a culture that claims the world’s highest suicide rate among 10-19 year olds. On his nightly radio show “Blue Night,” Jonghyun answered questions from listeners in an attempt to help “set their hearts at rest.” Fans say these displays of empathy made his suicide especially painful. “He was so open with his own struggles,” said What The K-pop’s Amy Leigh, “that when he died, we felt that we lost a champion for ourselves, someone who really understood us.”

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The mourning altar outside of a hospital in Seoul in December 2017.

One year later, Shawols are still fighting to support friends continents away, many of whom continue to carry their burden of grief through their daily lives. On Monday evening, Leigh hosted an online memorial broadcast on What The K-pop’s radio station to mark the one-year anniversary of Jonghyun’s passing. It served as a digital memorial service for Shawols who could not make one of more than 40 vigils held across 15 countries and 13 U.S. states throughout the month of December. To understand how the fandom is moving forward, MTV News spoke to six Shawols about how they’ve found strength in one another, online and off, in the year since the idol’s passing.

Warning: detailed descriptions of self-harm, depression, and anxiety.

MADELINE

19, Minnesota

I never felt truly understood as a person until I found SHINee and was able to explore and express myself while connecting with other K-pop fans through my YouTube channel. I was not planning to post a video about how heartbroken I was about Jonghyun’s passing until I realized that, regardless of distance or language, pain and joy are universal emotions and mental health is a universal struggle. Being vulnerable about those things is a superpower.

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Madeline with her poster from Jonghyun’s first compilation album, The Collection: Story Op. 1.

As international fans, many of us don’t have immediate support or understanding from those around us. I wanted to make a safe space within my corner of the internet to let people know they’re not alone and encourage them to grieve freely. To hear someone say “I feel this way, too,” changes things. So I said, You know what, screw it! I am crying in my room and I am just going to record myself speaking from the heart about what I am going through. I didn’t expect 54,000 people to watch it or 700 of them to comment. People were leaving messages of support, just trying to take care of each other. I think that, in turn, was a way for them to take care of themselves.

In Jonghyun’s case, I think he wanted people to acknowledge the broken parts of him. With that in mind, I ask people how they are a lot more often and give people a lot more space to express themselves. Jonghyun was able to give unconditional love to his members and his fans. That’s something that I always want to emulate through my channel and beyond. It makes me upset to think he thought he didn’t live a life that was impactful. His passing made me realize that everyone leaves a legacy when they die, so it’s OK to give yourself more credit than you think. Regardless of what you achieve, you’re somebody’s child, somebody’s friend. You create a ripple effect.

AURELIJA

27, Lithuania

The day was beautiful and sunny after a recent snowfall. I was in a very good mood and had just made myself some tea when my sister texted me and asked, “Did you hear about Jonghyun?” I dropped everything and went to the internet. I remember reading that he had been found unconscious and kept refreshing the news, hoping that maybe he’d made it to the hospital in time. Tumblr, Twitter, Facebook, everything was exploding with rumors but I refused to believe any of them until there was an official statement from someone I could trust. Then, there was an official statement. On Tumblr, some Shawols were harming themselves, and that scared me. I have quite a few Shawol friends around the world, and I messaged every single one of them and said “Whatever it is you’re thinking of doing, don’t. He made his own decision. You cannot do this to yourself.” Thankfully for me, every single one of them replied.

Other fandoms offered their condolences, but one really surprised me. I saw it on Tumblr. The lead vocalist of the group Linkin Park had also committed suicide earlier that year and their fans reached out to Shawols publicly and said, “We know what you’re going through. It’s going to be really hard and we know how painful it is, we’re sending you love and strength.” I was very touched, because our fandoms are so distant. It proved to me that language has no boundaries.

For me, SHINee is love. That’s what they mean to me, and I take a lot of strength from them. They make me want to be a better person, to be a good reflection of a Shawol. Being part of a fandom is almost like being part of a family. You all go through the same emotions together — pride and happiness in the good times, sadness and anxiety in the worst — in very large numbers, all over the world. That’s why, when I saw the thousands of messages from Shawols at Jonghyun’s memorial in Seoul, I said, “This is where our strength is.” The love we wanted to share with each other was immense; it united us.

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The temporary memorial for Jonghyun in Seoul. Over three months, fans gathered in the space to leave thousands of messages and mementos for the late singer.

Jonghyun’s death made me realize that, as long as you’re breathing, as long as you can get the fuck up and do something, you just have to do it. There are so many people who care about you, there are so many things you have to experience, so many things you have to do, that you can do. I look at the world so differently now. It’s never an option to give up.

CORTNEY

27, Georgia

In 2012, my friend Jasmine and I started a YouTube channel called 2MinJinkJongKey, which is a portmanteau of the names of SHINee’s five members. Our first video was concert footage of SHINee singing “Stand By Me” at Madison Square Garden, and we’ve continued to post SHINee-themed content ever since.

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After Jonghyun passed, I asked KCON if I could host a panel that would honor his memory and give attendees information about mental health. I was super nervous because I didn’t know how people were going to react to a panel like that. He didn’t die in a car accident; he killed himself. That hits in a totally different way. But as soon as we allowed the audience to share their memories, we saw how badly Shawols needed a safe space to talk. It was hard for some people to share, but it seemed like they could breathe freely again after speaking their truth. Losing Jonghyun was tragic but it’s a tragedy we can learn from. If we can save someone by talking about his suicide, that’s what’s most important.

I, myself, have experienced the same kinds of thoughts that Jonghyun did. In early 2017, I was in a really bad mental place. I planned to attend two of SHINee’s U.S. tour dates and then commit suicide, but something in me changed after seeing them in concert with other Shawols. There is no greater feeling than looking around a room of thousands of people and knowing you’re all there because of your love for the same thing. SHINee and Shawols reignited my fire; I decided I wanted to live.

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This handout was produced by the organizer of a local memorial Cortney attended in Atlanta, days after Jonghyun’s death. The back includes emotional health resources.

SHINee saved my life, and they continue to set an example for me and other Shawols as we heal. Their strength and vulnerability in the months after Jonghyun’s death helped us pick ourselves up and continue on as a fandom. In that way, they truly fulfilled the meaning of their name, “one who receives the light.” I will always be grateful to them for sharing their light with us.

JOSEPHINE

27, Sweden

In 2011, my first boyfriend cheated on me, and I remember thinking that no one would ever love me again. In that lonely time, I found SHINee and their music. They gave me a new community of online friends from all over the world. I was happy and had a reason to live again. I became an admin for SHINee fan pages and groups on Facebook, and sometimes stayed up chatting with other Shawols until five in the morning. To this day, Shawols are some of the best people I know. I found a new family in them.

I saw the news that Jonghyun had killed himself on Facebook and remember praying that it was a cruel joke. I stared at the screen for the longest time before I managed to click the link to the news report. The rest of the day is a blur. It felt weird to be so sad about someone I didn’t know in real life; it felt like a member of my family had died, like a part of my life and hope was gone. I don’t have any friends in real life that like SHINee or K-pop, so I went online to Facebook and YouTube. Shawols were there for each other, even from across the world. Everyone felt the same pain and most of us didn’t have people in our lives who could understand why we were heartbroken. I had been feeling depressed for a while before Jonghyun died, but I lost my strength to fight that day.

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Josephine’s tattoo matches one Jonghyun got to honor his second studio album, Poet|Artist, which was released posthumously on January 23, 2018.

Just last week, I reached out for professional help and will have my first meeting on the one year anniversary of his death. I don’t know if that’s a positive sign or a cruel joke from the universe. I got his neck tattoo on my own neck as a tribute to him. It feels like I have a piece of him with me and gives me strength to not give up. I know Jonghyun didn’t want to die. He wanted the pain to go away and didn’t get the help he needed. I am getting that help and will fight every day to get better, to keep living for him and the other members of SHINee, and to make them proud.

PEACE

20, Maryland

Around this time last year, I was going through a hard time with my mental health. A verbally abusive relationship had put me in bad depressive state, and I had distanced myself from the things that made me happy. The morning Jonghyun died, I was on the train to work in D.C. and saw a message about his hospitalization in a Twitter group chat. Rumors on Twitter spread so fast these days, so I scrolled through my timeline to see if what I was hearing was true. I didn’t see official news, just tweets saying “I’m so sorry to Shawols.” I hopped on Instagram and saw YouTubers and Korean celebrities posting messages about his passing. It was then that I realized I was crying and that everyone on the train was staring at me.

After that day, I pushed his death out of my mind until forcing myself to process it, for the sake of my mental health, several weeks later. I became a Shawol after watching Cortney and Jasmine’s SHINee reaction videos on their YouTube channel 2MinJinkJongKey, so it felt right to me to view their video about Jonghyun’s passing. Watching them talk about it was the closest I had come to speaking to another person about my grief.

I tried to participate in a group chat where Shawols spoke openly about their mental health. There had been a outbreak of people wanting to kill themselves in the community, so I was trying to be there for others. In the end, though, I was still not in a safe mental place and had to leave those chats, too. There’s only so much you can express in a digital forum like that. It was only when my Shawol friend Madeline gave me a call that I physically spoke with someone about how I was feeling and began to heal.

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A supportive group chat message from a Shawol.

To this day, I haven’t shared what I went through with my parents. I’m thankful that I had Shawols to support me instead.

KIMMIE

40, Georgia

I am a bit older than most K-pop fans. I’m married and have three children who love the genre. That shared interest has brought us closer. Before discovering SHINee, I had been in a depressive rut for a long time. Suddenly, I was happy again and making lasting friendships with other Shawols, in addition to connecting with my kids.

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Kimmie’s family dog, Jamong. “Jamong” means “grapefruit” or “short-legged person” and was a nickname given to Jonghyun by SHINee members Onew and Key.

I especially identified with Jonghyun. When you have depression, you can recognize depression. I listened to his nightly radio show “Blue Night” every single day for three years. He felt like a brother, like a friend; it’s a connection that’s difficult to explain. When he died, I went through a period of shock. When somebody brings that much light into your life, especially after such a dark period, you don’t know what to do when they are gone. My work suffered, and I ended up seeking therapy and was diagnosed with PTSD. I have been very open about my grief — it’s OK to feel those things when someone you care about passes away. I was lucky that my family understood. My kids and I spoke about how it affected us, and my husband brought me Kimchi stew in one hand and a box of Kleenex in the other when I was in the depths of my emotions.

It hit many of my Shawol friends hard, too. I stayed active on social media to be there for others in the community and was worried when some of them disappeared for a while. The cruel irony of online friendships in that you form relationships with people around the world but have no way of getting in touch with them if they don’t respond to your messages. Luckily for me, they did eventually write me back.

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Kimmie’s tattoo (which reads, “You did well, Jonghyun”) is a phrase commonly used by Shawols in messages of mourning. It’s said in response to a line from Jonghyun’s suicide note: “Just tell me I’ve done well.”

During that time, SHINee served as the main source of strength for us to move forward. In February, I attended the group’s concerts at Tokyo Dome. I had never been out of the country before, but I felt the need to be there. Those shows allowed us to process the tragedy as a community. It was the saddest event I have ever been to, but it was comforting to be with other people who were feeling the same way. When I inevitably began to cry, a sweet little Japanese Shawol standing next to me put his hand on my shoulder and asked, in his best English, “Are you OK?” Later, when he was crying, I gave him my tissues. These are the kinds of beautiful people that SHINee and Jonghyun brought into my life.

Though we miss him, I’m so grateful for the opportunity to have loved him.

If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health issues, there are ways to get help. Find resources at www.halfofus.com or call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK for a confidential conversation.

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Eagles HC Doug Pederson on Carson Wentz: ‘He Is Our Quarterback of the Future’

PHILADELPHIA, PA - DECEMBER 03: Carson Wentz #11 of the Philadelphia Eagles warms up prior to the game against the Washington Redskins at Lincoln Financial Field on December 3, 2018 in Philadelphia, Pennsylvania. (Photo by Mitchell Leff/Getty Images)

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Nick Foles is pretty popular in Philadelphia. He led the Eagles to the first Super Bowl in team history, after all, and guided the struggling team to a crucial win over the Los Angeles Rams last week that kept their playoff hopes alive.

That’s led to some Philadelphia fans clamoring for Foles to be the team’s long-term starter, but head coach Doug Pederson reiterated on Friday that the injured Carson Wentz remains the franchise quarterback (h/t Eliot Shorr-Parks of 94WIP):

“I can stand here and say that Carson (Wentz) is our quarterback. He is our quarterback of the future. That is why we drafted him. That is also why we have Nick here. A backup, a veteran player to—I don’t wanna say bail us out, but to come in an execute the offense. I think we just continue to reaffirm that to Carson. And let him know that, and continue to say ‘Listen, you are going to be here for a long time.’ We just have to commit to that, communicate that him, and let that kind of sink in.”

The third-year Wentz has seen injuries impact his past two seasons, with an ACL tear interrupting a potential MVP campaign last year and a fractured vertebra likely ending his 2018 campaign.

Wentz didn’t play poorly this year, throwing for 3,074 yards, 21 touchdowns and seven interceptions while completing 69.6 percent of his passes.

The Eagles have gone just 5-6 in his starts this season, however, as injuries have marred the team. Under Foles, the Birds have gone 2-1. 

The Eagles sit at 7-7 and a half-game behind the Minnesota Vikings for the final postseason berth in the NFC. Even if the Eagles win out against the Houston Texans and Washington, they’d still need Minnesota to lose once.

But what happens if Foles leads the Eagles to two straight victories and they reach the postseason? If Wentz is cleared to play, would the Eagles return him to the starting lineup or ride the hot hand in Foles?

Pederson’s comments suggest that Wentz would get the nod, though the move would be controversial in Philadelphia. Foles quickly became a hero after last season’s improbable Super Bowl run, and if Pederson pulled him after several wins in a row, there would be grumblings.

Wentz is the better quarterback, however. While Foles has played well in Philadelphia under Pederson, it’s important to remember he runs hot and cold and has completed just 60.8 percent of his passes in his career, throwing for 62 touchdowns and 31 interceptions. 

Eagles fans remember his hot streaks, namely when he outdueled Tom Brady in the Super Bowl. But Foles also played poorly at times last year. He completed just 50 percent of his passes in an ugly 19-10 win over the Oakland Raiders last season, and he didn’t throw for a touchdown pass in the team’s 15-10 win over the Atlanta Falcons in the postseason.

This season, he threw for just 117 yards and an interception in a season-opening win over the Falcons. Yes, the Eagles won those games, but all three came down to huge performances from the defense. 

Foles’ highs have been incredible for the Eagles, but his mythologizing in Philadelphia tends to forget his lows.

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Justice Ginsburg had surgery to remove malignant nodules in her lung


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Doctors found the nodules in Justice Ruth Bader Ginsburg’s lung when inspecting potential damage from a fall she sustained on Nov. 7. | AP Photo

Justice Ruth Bader Ginsburg had surgery to remove two malignant nodules in her left lung, the Supreme Court announced on Friday, adding that there was no evidence of any remaining disease and that no further treatment is planned.

Doctors found the nodules in Ginsburg’s lung when inspecting potential damage from a fall she sustained on Nov. 7. Ginsburg fractured three ribs during the fall, but was back at work only a few days later.

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Critically, doctors said there is no evidence the disease spread beyond her lungs — a development that could have precipitously cut the odds of survival.

Ginsburg said last Saturday during an appearance in New York that her health was fine and her ribs were almost fully recovered, and the Friday announcement from the court was her first public acknowledgment of the disease.

The vast majority of lung cancer patients survive the disease if it’s caught early, as it appears is the case with Ginsburg. According to the American Cancer Society, the five-year survival rate for stage one lung cancer is roughly 92 percent.

The Supreme Court’s statement also noted that doctors found the cancer incidentally while conducting other tests — a sign that the disease was detected earlier than normal. Lung cancer symptoms typically don’t show up on their own until the disease is at a far more advanced stage.

This is not Ginsburg’s first encounter with cancer. She was treated for colorectal cancer in 1999 and pancreatic cancer in 2009, NPR reported. At 85 years old, Ginsburg’s has never missed a day of oral arguments during her time on the court.

The court said on Friday that Ginsburg is resting comfortably and is expected to remain in the hospital for a few days.

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